Pictures hanging on a line♥

2010-06-13T01:28:00.001+08:00

This time, it feels better.

2010-06-07T18:29:00.002+08:00

Everything's just falling apart.
Bit by bit, the wall that was built around us is crumbling down.
No other way to fix it,
all you can do it to watch it fall to pieces, and pick up the remnants of what's left.
Everything you thought could keep you safe disintegrates in a flash.
What happens next?

2010-05-09T16:52:00.001+08:00

What the hell. Why can't you just piss off. why must you be everywhere right now. Why can't you just get out of my life right now because i don't want anything that has got to do with you.

2010-04-27T22:23:00.002+08:00

I hate admitting it but i hate you for leaving.
I hate you for disappearing.
I hate how everytime you come back, it makes no difference.
I hate how everything is minus one now.

2010-04-25T03:39:00.002+08:00

Today will be a day which i will keep hoping knowing nothing will happen.
Today will be a day i will try to believe knowing it will be futile.
Today will be a day that will hopefully be better.
And when the bright morning light shines in, something will change.

2010-04-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

It suddenly occured to me
while i was at Serene studying alone and smsing a bunch of people.
At the same time, everyone was smsing me about their dinner and i was wondering why the hell was I at macdonalds studying biology.

2010-04-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

Carnival's over!
it was pretty okay i guess. Basically just walked around with Huiqi, Wanqi, Sarah, Amanda, Rachel hahha!
OUR BOOTH WAS REALLY FAIL.
quite a few people went for carnival!

I screwed up bio test and oral.
WTH BIO TEST WAS SO DIFFICULT
and i just didn't know was my chinese oral tester was saying.
I hate school, it's so stressful from the tests to the homework to the after-school remedials.

What's the point in trying if you don't seem to bother at all. Giving up is just much easier than having to try for something that is pointless. I am so confused to the point where i just can't be bothered to try to figure it out anymore because i'm tired of all this.

Daydream in a cup.

2010-04-07T19:14:00.003+08:00

I really really hate school.

So we got back our math tests, AND AS USUAL i think i got lower in class. 19/30 :(
AND IT WAS FILLED WITH CARELESS MISTAKES AGAIN!
Mrs Gan was really angry cause we have to AIM FOR PERFECTION and get full marks, and only pei wei got full marks.
PEI WEI >: (
Sarah got 25! WHAT! but she wasn't allowed to be happy.

Went out with Wenn Er and Rachel to Ion for burger King.
it was quite fun!
haha i kind of forgot what happened.
Rachel was SUPER SUPER EXCITED CAUSE SHE BOUGHT CHERRY AND BANANA PENCIL CASES.
hahahaa! i really need a pencil case :(

Had chem tuition after that!
Dinner and starbucks with lex and frances :)
I think tuesdays is my favourite weekday!
then went to meet Wanqi and Huiqi for a short while.
OMG TUITION WAS SO BORING until like towards the end when ethan said MEBU! THAT WAS DAMN FREAKING FUNNNY!
we were all thinking it but never said it, THEN WHEN HE SAID IT OUT.
it was SUPER FUNNY.

WEDNESDAY!
Today was really tiring and i was irritated at the slightest things.
Had 10 round race and RACHEL CHAN FELL! HAHHAHA!
it was disgusting :( THE BLOOD AND STUFF!
then because of 10 round race I FELT SO STICKY FOR THE REST OF THE DAY!
And i was falling asleep during all the lessons esp history.

But chinese remedial was cancelled and Math remedial made today a little nicer.
Sat with Lex, Athena, Huiqi, Kailin and lecindra.
THEN WE WERE TALKING AND LAUGHING LIKE SHIT!
"Doesn't matter"
HAHHAHA SHIT I LOVE OUR REMEDIAL TEACHER (Y)

i just don't see the point in anything right now.

2010-04-07T00:29:00.001+08:00

OMG :(

I will sit around waiting.

2010-04-05T21:20:00.003+08:00

Weekends are over :(
Saturday
Trainings are sucha waste of time!
coach wasn't there so we had a replacement :(
AND I WAS SO EFFING TIRED THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO PLAY!
I ended up sitting at the court completing my bio tuition homework.
then lex and i decided to leave early and went to STARBUCKS :D
i LOVE starbucks early in the morning.

SUNDAY
Met HUIQI AND WANQI on sunday at lido.
I WAS LAST so i had to buy us food :(
it felt like a public holiday on Sunday!
So i didn't do any work at first, walked to far east to find clothes to buy!
OMG I WANT TO SHOP SO SO SO BADLY.
We ate at Food republic, OMG I WISH I COULD HAVE THE FOOD COURT IN MY HOUSE :(
Wanqi had to leave so Huiqi and i went back to lido and did work.
that's the end of weekends :(

Monday
OMG school is a drag.
I REALLLY HATE SCHOOL.
we got caught for sleeping during bio (after sleeping for idk how many times : / )
the only thing that makes it bearable is probably the friends.
STUPID TESTS ARE SCREWING UP MY GRADES.
i kind of give up on tests.
I mean not like certain people even give a damn and acknowledge effort right.

RACHEL AND I WERE ALL OVER THE
YO B!
WHATTUP A!
omg it just suddenly came to me in the middle of chinese.

I'll try to run away and see how that goes for me.

AIRPORT!

2010-04-03T18:31:00.004+08:00

FRIDAY (2/4 )
Woke up at like 6.30!!!
Met Rachel and Huiqi at Bishan and we took a mrt down to CHANGI AIRPORT :)
omg the mrt ride was like AN HOUR LONG!
Reached there and saw some cute hams along the way :D:D:D
We walked around and decided to study at Macs!
BOUGHT BREAKFAST :) HOT CAKESSSSSSSS (y)(y)(y)

We did A LITTLE BIT OF WORK! HAHAHHA!
Huiqi did the most i think! i did like 2 worksheets of bio? and rachel did a few questions!
hahahha!
we were really tired AND HAD NO MOOD TO DO ANY WORK.
so we ended up gossiping, bitching and crapping.
Huiqi told us the story bout sealegslexi (i think that's her tumblr name) OMG IT IS SO FREAKING SWEEEEEEETTTTTTT :(:(:(
Rachel couldn't come to orchard with us :(

Headed to orchard with HQ and met tass there.
so we walked around.
wanqi ditched :( (but i guess she had a valid reason!)
BUT HUIQI AND I WERE D-A-M-N tired!
AND I WAS CARRYING HER FREAKING BIO BOOK :(
My shoulders died and her bag was really heavy for some reason too!
Oh i met Kailin cause she was in ION! hahaha I LOVE KAI :D
Actually our walk around orchard felt like a dream cause i was so extremely tired and my eyelids were so heavy i don't exactly rmb what happened!
IT IS AMAZING HOW WE STAYED THERE FOR ABOUT 4 HOURS!

I wonder why i even bother when you don't give even the slightest bit of concern for it. Great to know that you were always there and how i thought you were amazing.

2010-04-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

chengsin says: "it's your fault for being too cool!"

SC TENNIS FORMAL PARTY

2010-04-02T21:06:00.005+08:00

Lovely C-div

SUPER AWESOME B DIV!

Sec 4s! (L)

THURSDAY (1/4)
Had a party at dairy farm's function room!
EVERYONE WAS LATE!
so Ruijia, Nat, Chelsea, Lex, Yimei , michelle and I Were waiting for everyone to come.
OMG WE WERE STARVING LIKE HELL.
And after begging Ruijia and Nat they let lex, chels and I eat! OMG THE FOOD WAS REALLY GOOOOD!!!!!!!!
THEN EVERYONE CAME!
SUPER LATE! but they had training before that so i guess it was kinda rush.

Played Taboo!
Split our groups into the WINNING TEAM and DORAEMON (or the WINNERS ALR)

DO-RE-MI-FA DORAEMON
WINNING

i KIND OF HAVE NO IDEA WHO WON!
HAHAH! but Taboo was fun!
Then Mrs Long came!
SO WE ATE THE MUAH CHEE SHE MADE!
SHE MAKES REALLY AWESOME MUAH CHEE :):):))
After that we all kind of started talking, camwhoring and people started leaving :(
THAT'S ABOUT IT!

2010-03-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

THIS IS WYNTON BEING RETARDED AS USUAL

2010-03-31T19:32:00.001+08:00

SHIT, it's back.

happy birthday YAMADA K

2010-03-30T23:57:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAILIN!♥
Hope you had a wonderful Birthday with your BUTLERS in Wild Wild Wet :)
NOW YOU CAN GO AND MARRY YAMADA LEGALLY!
and introduce KAME TO ME ;)
i should give you MY signature for your birthday right! You will always be the crazy HEY!SAY!JUMP! number one fan who buys all the WEIRD MERCHANDISE like the badge which is bigger than my face and the tumbler, lunchbox and weird WHITE FURRY THING!
I still can't get enough of the badge btw IT IS JUST REALLY COOL! Anyway hope you had a WONDERFUL 16TH BIRTHDAY although you had school:(
LOVE YOU YAMADA K :)

The clouds are ringing

2010-03-30T23:45:00.004+08:00

Today was pretty much awesome!
School was boring though!
We have been having MIKA FEVER!
happy eneding, billy brown, lollipop, love today, blame it on the girls, big girls you are beautiful!
(L)
AND OMG i thought i didn't bring my wallet, AND HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BUY MIKA TIX WITHOUT MONEY?!
so i cabbed home to get my wallet and on the way i decided to check for my wallet AGAIN!
OMG IT WAS INSIDE MY BAG!
wasted money on my cab :(
THEN I TOOK MRT TO BISHAN!
and i tapped my POSB CARD instead of my stupid CEPAS >: (
thatwas embarrassing but i doubt anybody saw (fingers crossed)

SO finally got down to Bishan, met Huiqi, Wanqi, Wenn Er and Rachel!
OMG BOUGHT OUR TICKETS!
GUESS WHO GOT FREE STANDING FOR MIKA, BITCHES!
ATE RAMEN AFTER THAT!
satisfied my hunger :)
omg Rachel was so full of shit about her nose job
"Just that they didn't remove my blackheads"
Then rachel and wenn er had to go for learning lab :(
Went down to Macs to study with Huiqi and wanqi it was kind of successful
but we also ended up talking and gossiping half the time.
THEN WE GOT CHASED OUT :(
went to the library!
I WAS IN A COMIC BOOK AND I GOT A SIMPSONS COMIC BOOK!
SIMPSONS!
then the library closed and we felt like eating supper!
HAPPY HOUR AT CAFE CARTEL! HALF PRICE!
it's a good deal!
Spaghetti, bread, cake, cheddar fries!
GOOOOD FOOOOOOOOD!

Left at like 10 plus!
haha my mum is going to kill me tomorrow when she wakes up!
:D
Well I THINK IT WAS A GOOD DECISION CANCELLING BIO TUITION!!!

It's worth holding on to.

2010-03-28T21:32:00.002+08:00

I don't know what i would do without you guys. I love you guys (L)
Rachel, Wenn Er, Wanqi, KaiLin, Sarah, Huiqi, Natassia, Chengsin, Alexis.
I can't help but cry when i see the post its in my diary.

2010-03-28T20:45:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, no matter how much you try to hide it, no matter how much you try to run away for it, you will always end up back in the same spot. Lonely and broken. Once you have been hurt, no amount of repairs can cover up the cracks.

I am trying really hard to keep it in me, but seeing you just makes me want to pour out everything and give you a hug which i haven't given you in years. I just want to say to you the three words that you deserve and i want you to tell me everything will be okay. But i i know that will never happen because i can't even bring myself to say a simply HI to you. When i see you, i can tell you are broken as well, i can tell you are keeping it in. I just want to make it better but i can't. I want your sweet embrace again.

2010-03-28T20:32:00.001+08:00

Sinking Feeling Sunday.

2010-03-28T20:05:00.001+08:00

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CONCENTRATE ON HOMEWORK WHEN MY HEAD IS WRAPPED AROUND SOMETHING ELSE!

yeah. shit happens.

2010-03-28T19:40:00.001+08:00

hey this is my 701th post!
i miss how life was like exactly 5 years ago.

WILD WILD WET!

2010-03-28T10:42:00.004+08:00

SATURDAYYYYYY
WILD WILD WETTTTTTT!!!!!!!
it was a celebration for shen-nen, Kailin and kind of Sarah's BIRTHDAY!!!!
met at Pasir Ris MRT! GUESS WHO WAS FIRST!
SO GOT THERE, and realised that WWW would only be open at 1 and it was 10.30 plus only!
But in the end we went to eat something and they let us in early!
it is pretty small BUT IT WAS FUN!
we took a BILLION PHOTOS! and sat the OOOOLALA thrice!
Kailin was damn scared, SHE SCREAMED EVEN BEFORE WE WERE PUSHED DOWN!

Halfway, we were kinda bored and Sarah and I were hungry so we ate KFC!
YUMMMMMMM FRIED CHICKEN (y)
then the tsunami pool was open! so we decided to go there! IDK HOW WE SPENT SO MUCH TIME THERE AND WE TOOK A MILLION PHOTOS THERE!
That was where we met our LOYAL STALKER!
oh gosh he was creepy! HIS CREEPY SMILE AND FLOAT AND EVERYTHNG!
So we tried taking underwater shots BUT KAILIN HAD TO KEEP LAUGHING MAKING EVERYONE ELSE LAUGH!
1,2,3 -laugh-laugh-laugh-
after a while, we got out and went to the shiok river, THEN THE STALKER CAME ALONG TOO!
WE TRIED TO GET AWAY, and it was pretty successful!

Got ready to go to Orchard, to meet Dione and watch ALICE IN WONDERLAND :)
WANQI DECIDED TO JOIN USSSSSSSSSS!
THE 3D WAS AWESOME!
omg and the 3D glasses were pretty cool!
the effect was reallly goooood! I LIKED IT :) (it's so pretty, i like it i like it!)
Then Sarah had to leave and we walked to wisma TO EAT!

OMG AT THE END OF THE DAY ALL OF US WERE SO TIRED!
but finally, I WENT OUT!
it's been so longggg!
Feels like holidays! School tomorrow D:

wake up and stop being a bitch.

WOAH,

2010-03-27T23:53:00.002+08:00

Finally, a day to relax!
TODAY WAS REALLY FUN!
blog about it tomorrow.
SO TIRED.
i don't want History tuition :(
THANKS WANQI, SARAH, KAILIN, SHEN-NEN AND DIONE!
LOVE YOU GUYS :)

Spare a thought for him, because his feelings matter too.

without a soul

2010-03-24T21:21:00.003+08:00

Tuesday
SOOOOO Ben and Jerry's free cone day!!!
went with Rachel, wenn er, wanqi and huiqi!
we didn't get a free cone in the end cause the queue was INSANELY LONG!
and omg RACHEL AND WENN ER POSED FOR A PICTURE FOR THIS ECO FRIENDLY THING! HAHAHA!
We ate at Hong Kong cafe, WANQI HAS NEVER EATEN THERE!
It was pretty fun!
played i have never
" I HAVE NEVER CALLED MY TEACHER A TRIGO FUNCTION!"
hahahaha RACHEL CHAN!
Went to aprime with huiqi cause she had AMATH!
met lex and walked over to coro to eat!
STARBUCKS AGAIN! OMG MOCHA FRAPPACHINO IS GOOOD!
chem as usual and that's all!

WEDNESDAY
Mum just went to KL!
there has also been this Rat that has been around the house, yucks.
school was pretty much a drag.
that's all.

i can't stay another minute in here.

2010-03-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

i can't take it anymore.
i really didn't want to know.

2010-03-22T23:03:00.001+08:00

THANKS WANQI AND SARAH FOR THE PRESENT :)

2010-03-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

I HAVEN'T BEEN SO FRUSTRATED IN A WHILE.

2010-03-22T21:49:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to say it, i don't know who to say it to but it's been bugging me. What am i supposed to do? Just sit down here and pretend nothing is going to happen or wait for a miracle to happen?Everyday seems to be moving faster and faster and i doubt i can take anymore of this.

2010-03-21T23:24:00.003+08:00

HEY LEXIS!
CHEEER UP! DON'T BE SO UPSET OVER SOMETHING LIKE THIS!
NOTHING WILL HAPPEN, TRUST ME (:
stop worrying about this! YOU GOT BETTER THINGS TO DO!
DON'T LET THIS GET TO YOU k!
LOVE YOUUUUU :)
♥

2010-03-21T22:31:00.001+08:00

WORKSHEET 1-7 could you PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MAGICALLY APPEAR? i am begging you :(

2010-03-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

I guess that's it. I see it now.

Clock's worth

2010-03-21T17:16:00.003+08:00

omg my ben 10 marathon ended :(
PROBABLY THE BEST BEN 10 ALIEN FORCE EPISODES YET.
omg BEN IS SO CUTE (this is weird but yeah.)
but halfway through my 4 hours in front of the tv some people started making an annoying amount of noise to disrupt it.
IT WAS SUCH A USELESS, UNREASONABLE MISUNDERSTANDING.
oh gosh, GROW UP.

Anyway had church yesterday!
cell was pretty fun!
i guess chengsin was in his LAME, HIGH MOOD.
and we were messing with zach yesterday!
hahahha
"LOOK UP!"
AND HE REALLY DID!
that was really funny oh gosh his expressions were priceless
"WHO IS THIS!"

school tomorrow! actually this week didn't feel very different actually
so school starting tomorrow is not much of a bummer.
OH BUT I HAVEN'T DONE MY HOMEWORK!
compre on tibetan buddhism :(

OH AND THANKS GLORIA FOR YOUR LETTER :D
it was really nice!
LOVE YOU!

And pretty soon all my trouble will pass
cause i'm a shoo-shoo-shoo-shoo sugartown.

2010-03-19T23:01:00.000+08:00

YHUIQI! WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?!
HUIQI says (11:00 PM):
*NO
*YOU DONT
*YOU HAVE A DICK
*ONLY GUYS HAVE

2010-03-19T23:00:00.001+08:00

KAILIN LOVES ME AND IT IS ALL OVER HER TWITTER!
i love you too kai :D

time for tv and then i'm gonna crash.

2010-03-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

At first, i felt bad, i felt guilty.
But seeing how you turned out takes all the guilt away.

2010-03-19T21:05:00.002+08:00

BLONDE HAIR, BLUE-EYED POTENTIAL HAM PUT HIS ARM AROUND RACHEL CHAN?! KILL ME NOW.

2010-03-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

TWO TUITIONS DOWN ONE MORE TO GO!
These holidays are the worse so far.
i have not gone out with anyone.
i have not watched a single movie.
i have not taken any photos.
OHMYGOSH BORING.

Honestly, i am in no position to judge but i just feel like i have to say this. You are being a bitch. I just hope you realise it sooner and do something about it cause it hurts.

2010-03-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

You seem so irritating and desperate right now. Just don't forget about the rest.

2010-03-18T21:21:00.003+08:00

WHO KNEW NOT TALKING TO CHENGSIN FOR ALMOST A MONTH would lead to a conversation WITH SO MUCH CONTENT.

2010-03-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

It's so effing hard to bring up the words MAY and AMERICA.

WELL ALRIGHT, IT'S OKAY

2010-03-18T19:23:00.002+08:00

OMG I AM SUPER BORED!
and i need to start on homework so badly.
MARCH HOLIDAYS ARE REALLY UNHAPPENING.
I NEED TO GO OUT NOW.

2010-03-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

KAILIN! THIS IS FOR YOU!

2010-03-16T22:08:00.002+08:00

i love this photo. CLASSIC RUIJIA.

just came back from chem IT WAS SO QUIET :( lex tang wasn't talking!
ANYWAY i want to go back to End of year holidays :( ALL THE SLEEPOVERS.
I THINK I AM HIGH and not sleepy cause i took my POWER NAP and drank a nice vanilla latte (Y)
i am busy recording sounds for Wenn er. her dp is damn cute.
school tomorrow, CHEM AND CHINESE PLEASE PASS BY FAST. i better bring my homework to do.

We're falling on our knees, waiting for time to pass by as we try to get back up. Only, nothing changes after that.

heartbreak warfare

2010-03-15T18:46:00.003+08:00

Saturday
Had NYWLD in the morning
Rachel and i have kind of SUCCESSFULLY learned the lil wayne part in down.
ARROWS IN THE SKY. (classic!)

WENT OUT WITH MY BROTHER IN THE AFTERNOON AFTER THAT.
it's been a while!
since he can drive THAT'S CONVENIENT. had to keep listening to his songs in the car.
BLAH BLAH BLAH, DOWN, YOU KNOW YOU WANT ME, and i have no idea what else.
we went to the NUS open house for a short while to waste time!
then headed down to town after 6, cause only then would the parking fee be per entry.
BUT OHYMGOODNESS later on when we left the parking fee was $7.50!
hahaha oh well it was quite nice walking around.
SHOPPED SHOPPED SHOPPED! i guess i didn't buy much but somehow i spent so much time there!
we ate at crystal jade, yum :)
AND I SPENT LIKE MY WHOLE ALLOWANCE ON THAT DAY!
no more cabbing this week :(

SUNDAY
went for dinner with rachel and wenn er
THEY MADE ME WAIT! but they kind of cabbed down!
we walked around spotlight finding masks for them.
THEY HAVE THE CUTEST MASKS.
Rachel was busy singing LOUDLY in spotlight.
walked around after that and we decided to go to cotton on to find rachel's soulmate/twin.
HAHAHHA HE WAS SINGING.
then they had the craziest idea to dress me up (?)
they made me wear clothes that made me look pregnant, BUT THEY INSISTED IT WAS NICE!
had MANHATTEN FISH MARKET after that.
YUM YUM! we kept laughing, AND COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING!
"can we have 2 manhatten fish markets? " (WHO SAID THIS?!)
HAHHA then i forgot what happen that made us laugh like shit.
Ice cream after that then went home!
THERE WAS A CUTE GUY ON THE MRT!!!
that's all i think!

Sometimes, things seem to be moving in a fast motion,
you seem to forget some things for a short while,
for a good few days,
but it always comes back and reminds you of things you wish you could forget
and throw it all away.

2010-03-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

OMG

Kazuya Kamenashi

SO CUTEEEEEEEEE!

2010-03-10T21:43:00.001+08:00

I love this song

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around til' I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again, ooh

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah yeah
Then finally make me do just what my momma said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again

2010-03-10T21:05:00.003+08:00

I think i just have to let it out.
i think i will miss you, i will miss everything. I've been hoping and wishing for something that i know i will never get, and even if i do get it, it won't be a happy one. I miss not treasuring the times we had. I regret drifting from you for the longest time and now, all i can do is watch you go away. i hate how i can't open up to you, even if i do what will i say. For now, i just hope that regardless of how i treat you, you know i love you.

2010-03-10T20:59:00.001+08:00

shitshitshit i can't concentrate on my history and ss. you could have picked a better timing.

nothing left

2010-03-06T11:43:00.003+08:00

2 MORE DAYS TILL OUR NOT- SO- MUCH- HOLIDAY.
how am i going to cram HISTORY, SS AND CHEM!
why must i have that stupid chem re-exam, WE ALREADY TOOK ONE!
history is driving me crazy, somehow chapter 3.2 is much easier than 3.1.

It finally rained today, it was a nice morning.

Why can't we travel in time,
to go to our future and see what we will be losing
so that we can treasure it now.

THE AFTEREFFECT

2010-03-03T17:56:00.003+08:00

Another hot day in the sun.
I HATE THIS HEAT, IT IS INSANE.
BIO PRACTICAL TOMORROW! don't screw up Amelia!

No matter how much she denies it, the loneliness deep inside is slowly surfacing. She refuses to accept that she is lonely. Although her life seems perfect in many ways, all that is useless when she is empty on the inside.

I'm wearing thin. I am exhausted, tired, drained out from all this.Sometimes, all i want to do is run away, run away from everything.

2010-03-02T23:46:00.001+08:00

WENN ER IS DAMN CUTE! I LOVE HER! (i love you criss cross bun :) )

2010-03-02T23:45:00.001+08:00

14886.) I have the freedom that I want. It's just the loneliness that's slowly killing me.

Bittersweet

2010-03-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

RAN FOR SPORTS HEATS TODAY!
100M! i got 5th place :) out of 6 people.
HAHHAHA! then i tried doing shotput! SHIT DAMN HEAVY SO I JUST DROPPED OUT.

went for house relieving again today with lex!
omg the houses are all damn freaking NICE! one day WE ARE GOING TO 6TH AVENUE.
i am dragging her along WHETHER SHE LIKES IT OR NOT.
had the usual dinner and Frances joined.
Lex listens to JAYJAY AND CYNDI HONEY. OH GOSH LEX, OH GOSH.
i think i was kind of high during tuition today DAMN FUNNY.
WE GOT OUR PLUS PLUS PLUS STUDENT JOINING TODAY.

ohoh my brother got his licence! NOT BAD!!!!!!
now i have my personal driver!!!!!!!

Just a holiday, ALL of us, and i will be satisfied.

I am coming to realise that knowing everything may not neccessary be a good thing. The tough part comes when you have to deal with it.

2010-03-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

I AM GOING TO ATTEMPT TO NOT CANCEL A SINGLE TUITION THIS WEEK (:

2010-02-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

personal mastery ended!!!!!
i think quite a lot of people cried yest!
I KNOW SO MANY PEOPLE WHO HAD A BAD DAY ON FRIDAY!
so to KAILIN, LECIN AND TASS, CHEER UP (:
LECIN THINKS THAT IT IS CAUSE it was the 26th which is twice of 13th (friday the 13th!)
well whatever the reason is IT IS OVER (:
oh and THANKS KENNETH!

i kind of felt motivated DURING THE WORKSHOP i just hope it lasts this time :( IT MUST OF I WILL FAIL O LEVELS.
pleasepleasepleasebemotivatedAmelia!

I JUST WATCHED G.I. JOE!
ohmygoodnesssssssss it was COOL!
i felt so free this weekend AND I DEFINITELY CELEBRATED THIS WEEKEND by watching lots of TV and SIMPSONS!
now the weekend is over :(

I have no idea how much longer i can try to pull everything together. I am trying so hard i think i am going to wear out pretty soon. It is so difficult just trying to act like i am not affected, acting like everything i do doesn't have another reason behind it. But i will promise myself that i won't shed another tear, not over this cause it won't do any good. Why must it be so tough just to put together all the broken pieces, if a child can fix a puzzle, surely i can do this. I think i need more patience, but i think i ran out of it.

2010-02-26T20:17:00.001+08:00

I can't help but notice, you don't seem to give a damn.

2010-02-26T20:10:00.003+08:00

I'm going to admit it once. i think i get possessive and jealous over one thing.

Sober but unconscious

2010-02-26T19:55:00.002+08:00

just finished THE WORKSHOP TODAY!
ohmygoodness it is long I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I SURVIVED IT THE LAST TIME AND HOW I SURVIVED IT TODAY!
it was the exact same thing... ADAM KHOO!
same instructors, same memorising skills and what not.
OH GOSH!
but on the bright side, THE WEEKEND IS HERE AND THERE IS NO HOMEWORK :)
how good does that feeeeeeeeeeel!!!!!!!!!!

i just want to lie here, under the endless skies thinking about nothing. I want everything that is troubling me to escape from my mind, one way or another. How is it possible to want something to end so badly but yet, never want it to come all at the same time. The fear in me is driving me insane, how i keep telling myself that i shouldn't be afraid and i would be happier, but i know i am just deceiving myself. I can't stand the thought of losing everything i have overnight. Everything that was once important to just disappear.

2010-02-25T21:12:00.001+08:00

SINCE I JUST REALISED KAILIN READS MY BLOG,(i never knew)
THIS IS FOR KAILIN: "do you want fish fillet, chicken fillet, beef fillet"
"FISH GLUE FISH GLUE"
" GREEN NOODLES!"

2010-02-24T19:37:00.002+08:00

I JUST REALISED I GOT PHOTOS FROM CNY! HAHHAA THEY WERE AWKWARD PHOTOS.

B DIVS ARE OVER

2010-02-24T19:31:00.002+08:00

WE GOT INTO TOP 2 :):):)
PLAYED FINALS TODAY we lost 3-2 BUT IT WAS A REALLY CLOSE FIGHT.
to CHELSEA, RUIJIA, SANDRA, SAMMY, OLLY, YING MEI, CHERYL, SARAH AND NAT YAP!

you guys played really well for the season to get us into finals :) SO THANK YOU! YOU GUYS TRAINED SO HARD AND IT ALL PAID OFF :)WE WILL BE LEGENDARY!!!!!!! IT IS THE FIRST TIME IN 10 YEARS. That is pretty damn cool ;)I LOVE SC TENNIS :)
THANKS GUYS! YOU GUYS ARE A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

omg cheeered like CRAZY! LEX AND I WERE LIKE WOOOOOOOOOOOO WOOOOOOOO WOOOOOOOOOO! screamed and screamed and screamed! the whole kallang could hear us :D
omg i got a stupid sunburn and stupid square sun tan from umpiring in my uniform. WTH! i only discovered it today! it is so red and it is so OBVIOUS. OHMYGOODNESS :(

my tests has beeen so screwed up! i have been BORDER LINE PASSING FROM EVERY FREAKING TEST :( I AM STARTING TO GET WORRIED.
workload has been MUCH LESS NOW. i guess that's good and bad cause there is less stress but i am starting to SLACK, too much! :(

2010-02-21T23:31:00.001+08:00

i think i heard something that i didn't want to hear.
i think i am overthinking and turning it into a nightmare.

2010-02-21T14:14:00.003+08:00

UPDATE!
omg training was fun!
BUT WE HAD TO RUN! sandra and i kind of walked 3/4 OF IT!
chelsea was smsing random people as usual!
so then we decided to sms IRIS (sbs transit!)
" HEY IRIS, HOW'S THE PUPIL COMING ALONG ;) "

oh had chem test on Friday! it was pretty okay! i think i got two questions wrong already! but i kind of expected it to be harder!
OMG AND MISS WONG IS SERIOUSLY, A WALKING WIKIPEDIA!
she was telling us all about these random things i forgot how they were linked.
then she told us about this country SAXON.
then rachel was like "SAXON FIRE!" hahaha TWO THUMBS UP CHAN!
we had remedial :(:( i hate how whenever it is FRIDAY AND SCHOOL HAS FINALLY ENDED, we have remedial after that!
IT'S SUCHA DOWNER.

SATURDAY! WE HAD TRAINING!
Ying Mei was damn funnnnny!
so she was playing with my phone when kenneth smsed me and asked what a baby shower is.
and Ying Mei doesn't know as well so we told her " it is when everyone watches a baby shower for the first time"
hahaa and she believed that and smsed Kenneth that!
THAT WAS SUPER FUNNY!
oh and i kind of had no mood to play tennis :(
AND WE HAD TO PLAY LADDER SO I JUST KEPT LOSING.
tennis lost its meaning :(

went to church after that! it was pretty alright! i kind of missed cell :(
didn't go for service though! i had dinner!
OMG THE FOOOOD WAS SO GOOOOOD!

cheryl lau is leaving tonight :( ANOTHER 4 MONTHS TILL WE SEE HER :(

Suddenly, when you are all caught up in it you just forget what you really want.
when that disappears, you are left with nothing.

2010-02-21T14:01:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUIJIA!!!
i hope you had a wonderful 16th birthday! you are the BEST BEST BEST ADMIN CAPTAIN EVER ;) I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! i love how you STOP US FROM WASTING FOOD and BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL MOTHER :):):) you are damn cuteeeee!!!!!!!!! it has been really fun camwhoring with you! i am glad some of our camwhoringness has rubbed off on you!YOU ARE A-W-E-S-O-M-E! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATTTTTT GHUIIIIII!
THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A AWESOME FRIEND :):):) hahha KHUNNNIE BABY! happy 16th nat! YOUR SCRAPBOOK WILL BE COMING SOON! HOPE YOU LOVE IT :) has so many wonderful sleepovers with you! with our RETARDED VIDEOS AND STUFF! HHAHHA! sorry i didn't go for your party :( but i am sure it was a great one! i love talking to you and catching up with you! thank you for being there for me!!!!!!!!! HAPPPPY BIRTHDAY NATKHUN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENGSINNNNNN!
YOU ARE THE BEST MAPLE BUDDY EVER ;) hahaha all those retarded things we do on maple! THANKS FOR ALWAYS WAITING FOR ME TO COME BACK ON! (afk queen ftw ;) ) and some of your SUPER LAME AND CORNY JOKES are funnnnny sometimes too! keep coming up with more! " this is not clean" -.-! THAT LOOK WAS CLASSIC! THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS ENTERTAINING ME WHEN I AM BORED AND STUFF! HAPPPPPY HAPPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY CHENG!

photobooth baby!

2010-02-21T13:59:00.001+08:00

MY MUM JUST DISCOVERED PHOTOBOOTH.

GOODNESS GRACIOUS

2010-02-18T22:58:00.002+08:00

OHMYGOODNESS! chem is in 9 hours!
i am so screwed.
i cannot memorise a thing!
MY HISTORY IS SCREWED BECAUSE I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA HOW TO DO IT.
and my amath IS UNTOUCHED.
shitshitshitshit.

Everything seems to be so different right now.

i lost sight of what mattered and somehow i can't put it back in place.
i forgot how it used to be and now it is just a blur.

Creeked and rusty

2010-02-17T18:03:00.002+08:00

WENT TO KENNETH'S HOUSE YESTERDAY FOR CNY!
mich, nat,kai, mark, cheng went as well!
WE MADE PIZZAS!
it was pretty okay actually!!!
we played pictionary, taiti, and i have no idea what!
WIILLIAM, AS USUAL WAS SUPER DUPER CUTE! I LOVE HIM!
and matthew as usual, WAS BEING CREEPY!
HAHHA BUT it was fun playing with everyone :)
went to orchard with nat after that!
we bought accessories and catched up! THERE WAS SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT!
i haven't talked to her in AGES :(
went for dinner with my mum, brother, valerie, sister and zach.
KOREAN FOOD WAS SO GOOOOOOOOOOOOD (y)(y)(y)
time to lose weight!
ALL THIS EATING IS NOT GOOD!

i haven't started on ANY WORK!
OHMYGOODNESS I NEED TO DO MATH!
DIEDED :(
HOW TO DO HISTORY!

well, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!

you know the feeling of having something.
something that you absolutely can't have.
but it is the feeling of trying that makes it so fulfilling.

2010-02-15T17:19:00.001+08:00

WHAT IS YOUR NAME???

CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2010-02-15T10:29:00.004+08:00

Went out with RACHEL AND WENN ER ON FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!
went shopping :)
i bought my dress and skirt! OMG FELT SO GOOD TO GO SHOPPING!
then rachel's friend, esther, joined us after that!
we went to watch VALENTINE'S DAY!
it is so cuteeeeeeeeee and sweeeeeet! PATRICK DEMPSEY, BRADLEY COOPER AND ASHTON KUTCHER! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
walked around 313 after that finding wenn er's shoes but couldn't find anything :(
THE START OF CNY HOLIDAYS!

WENT OUT WITH THE BUTLERS(sarah, wanqi, shennen, dione) +KAILIN ON SATURDAY!
omg we ate so so so much!
FELT LIKE I WANTED TO EXPLODE AFTER THAT!
wanqi made some random comment in the middle of our meal, which i still cannot forget!
hahha sarah's expression was CLASSIC TOO!
dione, wanqi and kailin MADE US WAIT FOR AN HOUR :(
HAHAH!
WENT OVER TO ION AFTER THAT to eat HOKKAIDO ICE CREAM!
IT WAS GOOD (y)(y)(y)

THIS WEEK

2010-02-15T00:13:00.004+08:00

WENT FOR KRIS ALLEN ON WEDNESDAY!

it was so last minute but nat and i decided to go!
it was at Zirca! IT WAS NOT AS CROWDED AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE!
omg KRIS ALLEN WAS SO CUTEEEEE!
THE CONCERT WAS AWESOME!
i love Kris allen now, and his singing is OMFGHOPANGPIN
thanks lex for the tickets!!!
after that we walked around clarke quay, waiting for nat's mum to come.
there was this really creepy man, REALLY CREEPY!

PICTURE OF THE WEEK! (look at coach's face, CLASSIC!)

we are into SEMIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Our match against RGS was kind of CLOSE! but AT LEAST WE GOT INTO SEMIS :) SO THAT IS (y)(y)(y)
OMG IT HAS BEEN SO HOT RECENTLY!
ohmygosh!!!!!!!!
NOT MUCH HAPPENED!

HOLD ON TO IT

2010-02-07T19:17:00.004+08:00

THAT WAS THE SKY ON SATURDAY! (sammy doesn't think it was nice!)

Training on saturday was pretty alright!
The new sec 1s came! they are kind of.... WEIRD.
especially ONE OF THEM, OR TWO.
nothing much happened.

WENT DOWN TO ORCHARD WITH MY MUM.
i got my NEW GLASSES :):):)
i hope i get it soon!
And my degree is FREAKING HIGH :(:(:(
BOUGHT A NEW PAIR OF SHOES AND A JACKET.
so much for not shoppppping, mum!
haahah!
then had family reunion.
FOOD WAS GOOOOOOD :)
my brother brought his girlfriend, and so happen, SO DID THE OTHER COUSINS.
hahaha!

OKAY THAT'S ALL FOR SATURDAY.

I AM ADDICTED TO CRAWL. and i want my KINGS AND QUEENS SONG >: (

what am i supposed to say.
how am i supposed to say it.
what am i even supposed to do.

THE SEAMSTRESS HERSELF.

2010-02-05T17:36:00.005+08:00

SCHOOL IS OVERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

HAD HISTORY AND SS TEST THIS WEEK
i screwed up so badly :(:(:(
I GOT 9/25 FOR HISTORY. LOWEST IN CLASS.
shit :(:(:(
I AM SO SCREWED FOR SS TOO cause i studied source B instead of D!
smart or WHAT!
i didn't do too well for chem too :(

Played SMSS on wed! we won 3-2!
omg it was a scary match for Ruijia And Chelsea.
BUT THEY WON ^^ GOOD GAME JIA AND CHELSSSSSS.
hahaha chelsea was damn funnny!
"i already gave myself the glare"
We were supposed to play today against RGS but it was raining.
AFTER THE CRAZY HOT WEATHER FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS IT DECIDES TO RAIN TODAY.
awesome!!!!!!!!

Training was funnny!
Played MAX 3. OMG BEAN IS LIKE SOME NINJA.
AND lex, sarah and bean kept cheating >: (
STUPID AGAIN AND AGAINS
hahahaa chelsea is a BAD INFLUENCE
"again, AGAIN!"
Then nat was looking through my wallet and found my mum's name card and was like WHO IS THIS.
AND i was like MY MUM
nat :" YAH RIGHT THEN WHY IS HER NAME NG PHECK CHOO"
me: "HER MAIDEN NAME LAH!"
nat : "YAH RIGHT DON'T LIE TO ME!"
me : " REALLLY NAT DON'T BELIEVE ASK LEX!"
nat: "LEX WHAT IS AMELIA'S MUM'S NAME!"
lex : "NG TIAN HOCK!" (wth!)
then nat stilll REFUSE TO BELIEVE.
so i smsed my mum "MUM WHAT IS YOUR NAME!"
hahhaa then when i shouted over to nat, MY MUM REPLIED. she lost her point!
hahhaha! SERVES YOU RIGHT NAT!

OMG AND i told nat my mum's chinese name was BI ZHU (seriously)
and she said THEN SHE SHOULD HAVE CALLED YOU BI ZHUI!
HAHAHHAHA!right, enough dialogue.
OMG i have damn freaking funny pictures of ruijia sleeping and then don't know who stuck TWIGS IN HER HEAD!
DAMN FUNNNNY!
i call jia TWIGGY NOW :)
but nobody laughed along with me >: (

LESSONS HAVE BEEN QUITE BORING.
at least we don't have as much homework!
OMG I HAD THE WEIRDEST CONVERSATION WITH WENN ER AND RACHEL.
it was funny though.
and got ACCORDING TO YOU stuck in my head!
"according to you, blah blah blah (i forgot)"

YES I DON'T NEED TO WEAR GLASSES TO SCHOOL NEXT WEEK!
that's it.

i honestly want to tell you.
just tell you what's been bugging me because i don't think i can stand another day of it.

As i see the morning sun set,
i tell myself that we are staying up all night.
we will stay awake for another sunrise.

TOURNAMENT

2010-02-01T21:07:00.005+08:00

TOURNAMENT TODAY!!!!!!!
beat IJ (tp) 4-1 :):):)
ALEXIS, I WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR "LAURA", "PETER" AND "
VERONICA" !
i love sam ong's camera!!!!!!!!!!!
omg the hip hip hooray part was funnny!
"3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3cheers for CHIJ............................TP"
hahhaha!

HOW TO STUDY FOR HISTORY :(
OHMYHISTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's the feeling of disappointment
when you think you see the finish line,
but turns out you are only halfway there.

2010-02-01T20:58:00.005+08:00

ANOTHER WEEK HAS ENDED.
school hasn't been THAT BAD I GUESS.
WORKLOAD IS MUCH LESS!
cell was kind of fun, I AM SO GLAD I HAVE SMALL FEET.
UNLIKE ZAC OR LINCOLN!
hahhaha!
Service was great

SUNDAY!
went to visit Kenneth with Nat cause he has appendicitis.
we bought him the COOLEST BALLOOONS!!!!
OMG BRAVERY AWARD... CLASSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!
other than that NOTHING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE FOUND THE JOY IN STUDYING

KRYPTONITE

2010-01-29T23:58:00.003+08:00

26/30 FOR EMATH :):):)
but i could have gotten 30 :(
20/30 for AMATH
but i could have gotten 24 :(
I HATE CARELESS MISTAKES
>: (
i really hope i do well for bio and chem!!!!

NOT TOO MUCH HOMEWORK OVER THE WEEKENDS!
THANK GOODNESS.
IF NOT I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I AM GOING TO STUDY HISTORY AND SS!!!
finished worksheet 7! 8 AND 9 LEFT (i am starting to hate diffrentiation)

Oh tennis yesterday was quite okay. Ran 2.4! but it was more like a catching-up session with lex.
THAT'S ALL!

I'm wrapped up in this other world.

The end of the knot

2010-01-27T23:41:00.004+08:00

WEDNESDAY!
Rachel came to school in her CRANKIEST MORNING MOODS EVER.
IT WAS THE FUNNIEST SHIT EVER.
she was damn cranky cause she spilled milo on herself, couldn't find her lunch box cover and other stuff. SHE GOT CRANKY OVER THE MOST TRIVIAL STUFF.
And games day got cancelled :(:(:(:(
history and ss test next week, I AM GOING TO START ON SS.
CAUSE I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ON IT.
emath test tmr!!!
My eyes are killing me, I CAN'T SEE THE FREAKING BOARD ANYMORE :(

i am addicted to my korean songs once again.
AND I WILL MAKE SARAH LIKE YOONA!
i found my FELLOW YOONA COMPANION!!!
MANDYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH my sister's coming back for CNY :)
okay that's about it.

Let's take the train to a corner. A corner where our old lives are no longer in sight.

Destined to be someone you are not

2010-01-25T21:47:00.002+08:00

MONDAY IS OVER! there goes the first week of school.
OMG I STILL CAN'T STOP LAUGHING OVER RACHEL'S PERIOD SENTENCE.
School today was pretty okay.
I ARRIVED IN SCHOOL AND WAS GREETED WITH AN AMUSING 6.50 IN THE MORNING RACHEL CHAN.
her facial expressions was CLASSIC!
I WILL PERFECT MY STRAIGHT LEG RACE AND BEAT HWAYCHEE!
I WILL GET OVER MY GEM OF LIFE OBSESSION... NOW!

THANKS HUIQI AND TASS FOR YOUR LETTERS.
i feel guilty writing you guys JOKE-ISH, NON-SERIOUS LETTERS.
i thought we were doing RETARDED ONES.
oh well :)
THANKS A LOT, LOVE YOU GUYS :):):)

why are you so desperate?

We are waiting for the times
when our hearts can feel at ease once again.

2010-01-24T22:47:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i wonder if you ever think before you speak. I am sorry you are being so insensitive, but i think you should take into consideration how this would affect me. So what if i freaking did that, how would i know you didn't want the world to know you have a FULL family?! honestly, i think what you said was just rude. Whenever i tried to forget this past of ours, you have to drag it back in. Even if i knew about everything it doesn't mean that i am not affected by this. i know deep down you are incredibly hurt, but so is he. This is screwing up my life, i hate talking about this, but i doubt i can stand another day/weeks/months/years of this.

i really miss going out with lex, chels, shan, jia, nat. I need my holidays back.

2010-01-24T22:04:00.003+08:00

I FINISHED LIT ESSAY!
OMG
i kind of thought it would be damn difficult, BUT IT WAS KIND OF OKAY :)
UNLIKE ME, CHAN WAS PROCRASTINATING!
HAAHHAHA!

i don't want to go back to school.

I don't know anymore

Think about nothing else

2010-01-24T18:04:00.003+08:00

Chem test is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!
I HOPE I PASSS:):):)
Oh on friday morning we were all walking back to class, AND THEY PLAYED THE SONG WHILE WE WALKING ALONG THE CORRIDOR.
so everyone was like WHATTHESHIT. haha right, so we just stood there and sang.
and Chan and i had A MOMENT.
it was so stupid she nudged me to sing the sschool song, then i rolled my eyes at her and sang.
she founds it pretty amusing.
Oh and during history she went: " MRS KWONG...CHOO!"
WHO IS MRS KWONG?!
hahhahaha!
I WAS SUFFERING FROM GEM-OF-LIFE-WITHDRAWAL-SYNDROME :(

Church yesterday was pretty fun.
i liked cell :)
MINXIN'S HAIR WAS REALLY NICE (y)
and Aaron is the FUNNIEST, CUTEST PERSON EVER HAHAHHA!
" GOOD GRADES?" (classic!)
I like carrying Lincoln's guitar! compared to my handbag!
Had dinner after that at cine with Kenneth, Mich, Min, Cheng and Bryan.
thanks cheng for the ride :)

I FINISHED WATCHING MY GEM OF LIFE!!!!!!!
I don't like the ending :(
BUT WHATEVER. hahah the girl's name is GIGI LAI! HAHAHHA!
but i like her :) AND WITH MOSES CHAN (y)(y)(y)
Okay time to do my TKAM essay :( IDK HOW TO DO!!!

We are searching for our shadows,
in the middle of the night,
with only the street lamps to help us.

2010-01-20T21:50:00.001+08:00

hey everyone!!!
GUESS WHAT, ISAAC ENGLISH IS GOING TO GET FIRED (((((:
he is being REPLACED!!! HAHAHHAHA!

One of the other ways

2010-01-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL HAS BEEN SO STRESSFUL.
and it is only the second day of the week.
I FINALLY FINISHED ALLLL MY HOMEWORK (other than hist!)
TOOOOOK ME SO LONGGGGGG :(
binomial and history quiz tomorrow, I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DO NCR FORMULA :(
DIE!!!!
I think i was having monday blues,
but the talk about Rachel's retarded moments made if much better

Rachel's... MOMENTS:
1. SHUT UP LAO SHI
2. LAO SHI NI WEI SHE ME ZAI MA WO.
3. Mrs Cosec!
4. University!
5. Aunty Mel!!!!
6. Mrs Mohani???
that's all i can remember for now, BUT THERE IS DEFINITELY MORE.

School today didn't have much homework, so that's (Y)(Y)(Y)!!!
Had lunch with Wenn er and Rachel.
we were laughing damn loudly.
from the Rachel holding wenn er's nose thing.
TO rachel seeing a girl at her dental appointment, whose school socks said CCB.
hhahahha SHIT THAT WAS DAMN FREAKING FUNNY.

Just the sound of your voice
can make me feel as if all my troubles would be gone in a flash.

2010-01-17T22:09:00.001+08:00

how to do ALL MY WORK!

Maybe you'll get it right

2010-01-17T20:08:00.004+08:00

school was kind of okay on Friday.
FINALLY DID THE CHEM RE-TEST PAPER.
it was pretty okay, cause most of it was from last year's eoy chem paper!
it is not exactly TGIF i guess, considering HOW MUCH WORK THEY GAVE US!

1. unseen prose.
2. Compre &summary
3. Trigo revisions 11, 12 and 13 (THEY ARE DIFFICULT :( )
4. Mgs and Acs chemistry papers. (HALFWAY DONE FOR BOTH ^^ )
5. Emath Paper
6. History template
7. ~~Chinese newspaper articles~~
8. Study for bio test!!! ***

it kind of looks like i didn't do anything over the whole weekend, BUT IT FELT LIKE I DID.
i think it is cause I HAVE BEEN STUDYING FOR BIO AND DOING ALL MY TUITION WORK.
ohmygosh tuition :(:(:(

OTHER THAN SCHOOL AND STUDIES. church yesterday was pretty alright!
MIN'S HAIR (more like non existent hair) IS REALLY FUN TO "play" WITH.
we had treasure hunt for cell!!!
so i was grouped with mich, min and lucius.
we were walking around looking for a lonely man in blue sitting at a chess table.
then we were talking about stalkers and stuff hahha.
it was pretty fun!
had dinner with tass, kenneth, mich, lucius and lincoln.
IT WAS ALRIGHT :):):)
That's about it!

THANKS MICHELLE FOR THE PICTURE.

Thanks for making it so much more bearable.
thanks for understanding.

Right from the start.

2010-01-14T22:06:00.003+08:00

I didn't go to school yesterday cause i felt sick.
my throat was KILLING ME. and i kept sneezing :(
SOOOOOO today, school was okay i guess. nothing much happens in school anymore.
i am going to make myself stop going for recess.
So we had training today, which was quite fun cause we played max 3 :)
I LOVE MAX 3!!!
and we SUCCESSFULLY avoided physical, but we have to do it in our own time.
WHICH I REALLY THINK I WILL DO, CAUSE i need it. I FEEL REALLY UNFIT :(

Had tuition after that but lex didn't come :(
SHE DITCHED ME.
i kind of want to transfer to tuesday.
have to do homework now!
i can feel all the homework PILING UP RIGHT NOW.
SHIT and everything is due tomorrow.
DIE.

whatever.

It had always bothered me and i can't seem to let go of it. Recently, i've learnt to realise that nothing will change, i may make a million wishes for it to go away, but it never will. I am really trying to ignore it day by day, somehow, it is always easier said than done. That day, when she asked me about them, i had no idea what to say. She knew something was wrong and she could sense that there was a problem, but the fact that she tried to smile while we were talking about it was comforting. It was the fact that she was trying.

2010-01-12T20:24:00.001+08:00

I THINK I AM S-I-C-K :(

I hope you get your dream

2010-01-12T18:38:00.002+08:00

CHINESE WAS PROBABLY THE MOST FUN CLASS TODAY.
cause tass and i were talking throughout THE WHOLE TWO PERIODS (we were suppposed to be doing our chinese essay!)
the question was about your friend's secret, SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
so we were thinking of the COUNTLESS POSSIBILITIES OF WHAT OUT SECRET COULD BE.
and we were laughing so freaking hard. Everyone wrote like one page and we were still at HALF A PAGE.
that is probably why we rushed the last part!

i was falling asleep in all the other lessons.
OMG SHIT IDK WHAT WAS HAPPENING DURING AMATH!
i forgot ALL MY TRIGO.
now i can't do my worksheets :( AND I WILL FAIL THE QUIZZZZZ!!!

Why don't we go back to the past, just to make sure this isn't a dream.

2010-01-11T20:56:00.003+08:00

I LOVE PHOTOBOOTH (:

We'll grab all that we can

2010-01-11T20:22:00.004+08:00

school today was ALRIGHT.
had lecture after lecture, PRETTY BORING. LECTURES ARE REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE TOO.
Math was the craziest period of the day, cause Huiqi was being so IRRITATING AND HIGH, so sarah and i attempted to KIAP HER. i think we did so like THRICE.
GOOOD WORK WHITEY :):):)
she was singing AVE MARIA and the only two words she knew was AVE MARIA.
so she sang that again, and again >: (
then after that i used my blanko to draw on Huiqi's worksheet then she screamed
" SARAH, WHAT YOUR BLOOD IS ON MY PAPER"
then Huiqi and i laughed like SHIT, SUPER LOUDLY.
i think alot of people were annoyed at us :( but Mrs Gan wasn't there! SO IT'S OKAY :)
shit THAT WAS DAMN FREAKING FUNNNNNNY!

we had the o level results thing, and rachel was tearing.
EXTENDED HOLIDAYS OF CNY :)
THANKS TO THE 2009 SEC 4s!!!!
OH congratulations O LEVEL HIGHER CHINESE GIRLS :)
wanqi, DON'T BE TOO UPSET, ALL YOUR FELLOW KIAPERS ARE HERE BEHIND YOU :)

i like this photo!

2010-01-11T00:05:00.002+08:00

Thanks Sam Lee for the prayer!!!

Doing the right thing is never easy, But we will just have to take a shot at it, or we will never know the ending.

i wonder why it is

2010-01-10T22:06:00.010+08:00

went out with Shanice and Elliot today!!!
IT WAS NICE SEEING THEM AGAIN!
we went to great world!
so while waiting for liot, shanice and i were at macs doing our work.
HAHAH BUT THAT WAS ALL THE WORK WE DID
LIKE ONE OR TWO QUESTIONS.
then we went around to camwhore and find wireless connection!
Oh then i met Sam for a while cause he was there!
hahaha BASICALLY IT WAS JUST A NICE RELAXING DAY TODAY!

you are making our lives miserable.

You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side.

TASS' SWEET SIXTEEN

2010-01-10T19:31:00.007+08:00

SATURDAY ( 9th january!)
TASS' SWEEET SIXTEENNNNNN!
WE all met at meritus mandarin.
I WAS THE EARLIEST ;)
then we tass huiqi and i waited for andrea, wanqi, sarah, serene and celine.
Went into the room, WE HAD A PRIVATE ROOM :)
WE ATE ALOT OF GOOD FOOD.
yum yum!!! I LOVED THE SASHIMI!
we gossiped and stuff, it was really fun just talking!
then we camwhored!!!

We saw the cutest baby EVER!
aloycious (HOW TO SPELL?!?!?!)
HE WAS SO CUTEEEEE AND CHUBBBBBY!!!!

we walked around meritus mandarin after that.
And ohmygoodness the scariest shit happened to us.
it was tass, wanqi, huiqi serene and i.
the shops were kind of close so we were sitting around.
THEN SOME PERVERTIC OLD MAN WALKED PASS US AND KEPT SMILING AT US
and they didn't see so i whispered to huiqi and she told the rest.
The security guard kind of chased us out so we were going down the escalator when the old uncle POPPED OUT AGAIN.
so we ran down the escalator (in our heels, it was noisy!) shouting "OH I THINK MY DAD IS HERE" and stuff like that.
then tass left :(
so we loitered around the lobby (SO DID THE GUY!)
we went out cause we were going to walk serene out, and the guy WALKED OUT TOO.
then he went off to the left, so were like PHEW.
then we walked towards the right, THEN HE CAME BACK AND FOLLOWED US.
he continued smiling at us in the I REALLY WANT TO RAPE YOU WAY.
so we talked to the doorman and asked him to "help" which he kind of didn't, but the guy disappeared for a while BUT he came back into the hotel.
so we went OUT and yah that was the LAST OF HIM.
so disgusting. I CANNOT FORGET HIS TRAUMATIZING SMILE.

THANKS NATASSIA FOR THE AWESOME DINNER
♥

We're digging deeper

2010-01-10T13:00:00.003+08:00

OMG LIT ESSAY TO DO :(
i kind of forgot how to do lit essays!
AND I HAVE TO DO THE CHINESE NEWSPAPER ARTICLE THINGY, and i realised... THAT MY COMPUTER CAN'T TYPE CHINESE.
awesomeeee.
We have to do some documentary thing too! I have no idea what documentary to watch!
Oh and i didn't bring home my chem part 2 book, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO STUDY ACIDS, BASES AND SALTS NOW >: (
i am so screwed.

You may think that it is funny and all, but i don't. it is starting to piss me off and you aren't aware of it at all. Maybe you are, but you choose to ignore it and continue to be a bitch. i really hope that you will start to realise that this isn't funny, AT ALL and you're just being a pain in the ass.

you don't know me, at all.

2010-01-08T19:27:00.003+08:00

DINNER ON WEDNESDAY WITH MY FAMILY + my sister's boyfriend+my brother's girlfriend.
IT WAS PRETTTTTY GOOD, maybe cause i MADE THE FOOD.
my mum kept bugging me :(
I WAS TRYING TO STUDY FOR MY PROGRESS TEST.
but anyway dinnner was quite fun, my dad was being all sizist and stuff again >: (
HAD DESSSERT AND BLAH.
cause my sister was leaving the next day :(
AWWWWW MANNNN I KIND OF MISS HER!

hey first week of school!

2010-01-08T19:03:00.004+08:00

I FEEL LIKE I HAVEN'T TOUCHED THE COM IN AGES.

anyway SCHOOL IS SO DRAGGY
all the bandings and stuff!
IT SUCKS.
tass is not in our math class :(:(:(but she's in bio, math, chem!!!

Hwaycheeeee is in everything except chinese.
i finished ss essays IN TIME.
OMG FELT SO GOOD WHEN ALL 3 ESSAYS WERE DONE.
thank goodness they are only counting one, so i guess i crappped up the other two!

TUESDAY
CHIMNEY'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPPPPPPY BIRTHDAY :) LOVE YOU!!!!
(can't wait for your party tomorrow!)
oh and we had to line up according to reg no.
IT WAS SO STUPID O.M.G
then tass was talking bout ahlong's bowling ball, AND SHE HEARD. super funny.
GOOD ONE CHIN.
then lessons, blah blah.
OH WE HAVE THIS GROUP THINGY.
first group is the hulk (their "flag" is damn cute!)
then ours is justice league. There is flash, and i forgot the last one.
SO WE WENT OUT AFTER SCHOOL, TASS, HUIQI AND I.
i sort of treated them, like paid for HALF OF THE STUFFFFF.
walked around and that's about it :)

WEDNESDAY
CCA WALKABOUT!!!
we had like 70 over people signing up, that was quite gooood!!!
i was doing some stupid DISTANT COUSIN THING for chelsea.
nothing much on wed!

SORRRRY I COULDN'T GO OUT!!!!!! but thanks for the really nice sms (:

THURSDAY
Oh recess was quite fun!
serene and i were remembering the times with lao shi and chan!
" YING YAN, NI WEI SHE ME JIAN TOU FA "
that was the best scolding rachel received from her!
and rachel shouting LAO SHI SHUT UP!
i can't believe lao shi isn't our teacher anymore :(
then we were talking about enid blyton and whatever.

I had a chinese progreesss test, which i screwed up.
SO, GUESS WHO IS GOING FOR CHINESE REMEDIAL :)
had training after that, which was quite slack cause of tryouts.
IT WAS REALLY FUNNY!
egg, stick, half a fish, forest.
then played max 3 and stuff.
HAD TUITION AFTER THAT WITH Lex, tass, huiqi and Frances.
chem class was quite chaotic with all the laughing and talking.

FRIDAY
MAJOR TGIF :):):)
omg i am in mrs choo's chem classssss!
I WAS FREAKING OUT WHEN SHE WAS READING OUT NAMES.

recess was fun, with wanqi doing her stupid accent! and sarah kiaping her.
THAT WAS CLASSIC.
we were kind of jamming the staircase cause we were trying to get wanqi.
WE HAD ENOUGH OF HER IRRITATING ACCENT FOR THE WHOLE RECESS.
nothing much happened today also.

TASS' SWEET SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY PARTY TOMORROW.
i am so excited for her :)

you are starting to piss me off.

2010-01-04T23:31:00.007+08:00

hey tass you are turning 16 in like a matter of MINUTES. not hours, MINUTES. it is quite a big jump if you ask me! 15 to 16. FRIGGING NC 16 MOVIES, TASS WILL BE WATCHING YOU SOOOON, and when we are all complaining about waiting for months to be able to watch NC 16 movies, YOU WILL BE STROLLING INTO THE CINEMA! PSH!!!!! anyway i am realllly thankful that God has provided me with a friend like you, sure, we may not agreeee all the time but i think we do hit it off pretty well ;) fashion advice, gossiping, bitching sessions and what not! they are fun k! :) and clapping when you are on stage, smile more and laugh more on stage, ALWAYS MAKES WORSHIP MUCH MORE FUN FOR ME K!! :P
YOU HAVE BEEEEN A WONDERFUL PRINCESSSSSSS OF GOD SO DON'T FORGET THAT. you always remind me that i am a PWEEEEEEEENCESSSS OF GOD so not i am reminding you! you are too!!!!!!!!!!!! You share your knowledge about God and all your spiritual talks, prayers and stuff. you are MY BEST CHRISTIAN FRIEND REALLY REALLY (L)(L)(L) you may be direct at times but wtv it is YOUR PERSONALITY nothing anyone can do CAN CHANGE THAT. so just stay that way :) when you are direct, it gets people thinking about it also, instead of beating about the bush! Whenever you are having problems be it family problems, friend problems, I AM HERE FOR YOU. a listening ear for you to rant!!!i'm always a phonecall away!(T) thanks goodnesss for technology these days right!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D

i will give you a nice 16th BIRTHDAY HUG TOMORROW DON'T FORGET TO CLAIM IT!!!! (L)
SOOOOOOOO NATASSSIA CHIN, here is wishing you a GREAT 16TH BIRTHDAY AND I REALLY HOPE YOU ENJOY IT TOMORRRRRRROW!!!! WITH US ;) i will make it a memorable birthday! it might not big good, BUT IT WILL SURE BE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (L) I LOVE YOU LOADS TASSSSSSS CHIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*HAPPPPEEEEEEEEE BURFDAY

Time starts to gather

2010-01-04T22:00:00.003+08:00

so many of our subjects are banded :(
WHICH IS DAMN SAD CAUSE WE BARELY SPEND TIME AS 4GY!
i think the only period we do so is English, FOR NOW. Maybe ss and emath!!!
other than that school was okay... i guess.
TIME TO DO ALL MY HOMEWORK.

dreading it day by day.
Nothing but the feeling of emptiness.

2010-01-03T19:03:00.002+08:00

OKAY ENOUGH COMPLAINS.i am going to make NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS CAUSE I AM 16 THIS YEAR, which means Os! i shall stick to my RESOLUTIONS!

1. STUDY STUDY STUDY.
2. I WONT LET ANYTHING DISTRACT ME FROM STUDYING
3. NO PROCRASTINATION.
4. Do my homework!!!
5. catch up with sss from time to time (I PROMISE!)
6. Ace my o levels.
7. have a really awesome sweeet 16!
8. Talk to my family a lil more.
9. Start listening properly during lessons!
10. DON'T CANCEL MY TUITIONS (:

i better stick to them, or i am killing myself.

2010-01-03T18:45:00.001+08:00

OKAY WHERE WAS I WHEN EVERYONE WAS DOING THEIR WORK!
WHERE WAS I WHEN EVERYONE WAS BUYING BOOKS!
I HAVE NO EFFING IDEA.
omg i am so freaking screwed. i blame myself.